The Secret is OUT...

Whether she likes it or not, Emily's big sister duties begin in August! Nate and I are EXPECTING. Which if we're being totally honest, it still doesn't feel real. I mean, it feels real when I'm throwing up water in the morning but other than that I still can't believe I'm going to be a mom. A MOM. It's crazy. I'm still trying to wrap my head around it, but I can't. I wanted to blog about it so bad it hurt, but I didn't want anything to happen and then I'd be explaining a tragedy.

Actually, I'm still pretty early. I'm 10 weeks+ and it's recommended that you don't tell friends until 13-14 weeks. But HELLO, I'm a blogger. I can't wait that long. The reason I've been so quiet is because this is all I've been thinking about. I knew that if I sat down to write a post, I would spill the beans and ruin it. So I waited. And waited. Finally I'm comfortable enough to actually talk about it. I also thought if something were to happen (a m/c) then I'd want to write about it and share my story.

Alrighty, let's get to the good stuff shall we? When you tell someone you're pregnant they typically ask you the same questions, so below I've answered the most common ones I've gotten so far...

Did you know you were pregnant before you took a test? 
-True story, I knew before I missed my monthly present. I woke up in the middle of the night and felt EXTREMELY hungry. Hungry like I hadn't eaten in days maybe months. It didn't matter how much food I ate at dinner, I would wake up and have to eat something in order to go back to sleep. I was also using the bathroom frequently even if I wasn't drinking a lot of fluids. I knew something was up with my body I just didn't know what.

Then I went to the grocery store for my weekly shopping. I was standing in the cracker isle loading my cart with cheese crackers (because that's what I craved at night) when a mom and her crying baby rolled passed me. When I say crying, I mean screaming. She wanted a toy and her mom wouldn't give it to her. So I stood there for a second and my stomach flew to my throat. I walked down to the tampon isle and grabbed a store brand pregnancy test. I was literally sweating through my clothes as I did the rest of my shopping. When I got home, I took the test... and it DIDN'T WORK! Nothing showed up. So I let out a big "Whew!!!!" and went on with my day.

A couple days later, something was telling me to take another test. I went back to the store and bought a different brand that came with 3 tests in a box. I got home and ran to the toilet and peed on all three tests. I sat there and watched the first dark pink line appear (it appears whether you're preggo or not) and I was like, "cool! maybe I'm just crazy" ... seconds later, another pink line appeared. A very light pink line. I rubbed my eyes, slapped my cheeks with cold water, and sat on the ground breathing heavily. ARE YOU SURE THAT'S A PINK LINE?!

Yeah. That's a pink line.

I did what any girl would do, and went back to the store and bought another one...

and that was it. I called Nate who was in Alabama finishing up some training. I knew he was in class so I thought maybe I could leave a message asking him to call me back. To my surprise, he answered and I didn't know what to say. It went a little something like this..

Me: Hey... soo.. I've been feeling really weird so I took a pregnancy test, and I know you know you what it says since I'm calling you about it...
Nate: ......
Me: I can't breathe. I'm sitting down on the bathroom floor.
Nate:......
Me: Hello?
Nate: alright, well, here we go!

Did you guys plan this pregnancy?
We absolutely 100% DID NOT plan this. We just got married! This wasn't supposed to happen until two years from now!! HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN!?! Well... we know how it happened... but really? Right now? Are we ready for this? Will we be good parents? Will this ruin our marriage? Is this really happening? We were scared. Like, really scared. To tell you the truth, we're still scared. Every day we're getting better and more OK with it all. After calling Nate and telling him I was pregnant, I called a doctor and set up an appointment.

How was your appointment?
We were nervous, knowing that this would confirm the pregnancy. We got an ultrasound and heard the heartbeat and that's when our attitudes changed. We were extremely happy and for once, excited. It was crazy to see a baby inside of me. I kept asking the nurse if she was sure that there was a baby in there. Ha! I laugh at it now, but I was serious.

Did you tell your parents?
We told our parents on Christmas Eve and Christmas day. We gave my mom and grandma a present with a countdown clock inside.

My mom wasn't too excited and neither was my grandma. I think that's because we just got married and they weren't expecting this. I'm also the baby of my siblings so I'm still a little girl to them. I understand. Now that we've been to our first appointment they're excited! We told Nate's parents on Christmas day over the phone and they were shocked but thrilled!! I think everyone is looking forward to having a little grandbaby running around.

How are you feeling?
I started feeling sick around 8 weeks. 9 weeks was probably the worst. I switched prenatal vitamins and that's helped significantly. I'm still VERY hungry and if I don't eat, I'll get sick. Speaking of eating, the only craving I have is yogurt and Chickfila. Gawwwd I love Chickfila. I want NOTHING healthy, except cucumbers and carrots. Peanut butter, chocolate, or anything sweet makes me gag. I don't like to cook because the smell is so strong so Nate has done a great job of filling the cook role. The food part is probably the hardest part on him because he wants to eat healthy and I don't. I want pizza, he wants a salad. I want doughnuts, he wants eggs and so on. I'm lucky enough to say I haven't gotten severely sick, I just feel queasy a majority of the day.

Do you want a girl or a boy?
I don't care as long as it's healthy. Nate on the other hand is praying every night for a boy. He wants a camping/football buddy. I've been told that most guys are like this. I don't care, as long as he gets over it when we find out this baby is a girl. ;-)

When are you due?
We're due August 22nd (I know that picture says 14, but I meant for it to come across as 2014. FAIL on my part)

I'm so happy to finally share the news! We've been anxiously waiting to shout it to the world since our first appointment. Hopefully everything goes just as smoothly at our next. I'll be sure to keep you all updated as the pregnancy continues since I'm back to blogging regularly again.

See you Monday!